Not Now, Little One

Posted on July 8, 2012 by Tereasa • 29 Comments

I see you, little one, wanting what big brother has. You cross your arms and stomp your feet because he’s eleven and you’re not. You want the freedom to ride your bike through town and visit Grammy on your own. Life’s not fair and you want to scream about it.

You think I’m mean and say you hate me, but I know the truth. Deep down inside, you know I love you and want what’s best. At the end of the fit, I’m still your mom and you’re still my little lamb. No amount of anger will change the way I feel.

Come here, sweet boy, and let me hold you. I know these tears you cry. I cry them, too. Are you surprised? I promise it’s true.

I want what she has. I envy and covet. I long to grow up and do what the big girls do. In the dark of my room, I stomp my feet and say it’s not fair. I scream and cry to my Father above. Then he scoops me up and says, “There, there. Not now, little one. It’s not for you. You know I love you and want what’s best.” At the end of my fit, I feel him close and know. He’s my Father and I’m his lamb. Nothing I feel will change that.

Thank you, Father,

For loving me and keeping my close.

Amen.

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Cassandras Corner

This post is very sweet and reminds me of my youngest son. I’m a new follower from the Naptime Blog hop!
From Jenny @ http://www.cassandrazcorner.blogspot.com
- TereasaM
  
  Yep, this is my youngest! He doesn’t like that position, of course, but he doesn’t realize how privileged he really is.
http://thepocketfulofdreams.blogspot.com/ Misty @ Pocketful of Dreams

Following you on Pinterest! I think we can all use a reminder of God’s promises and love for us. It’s easy to get caught up in the day-to-day and forget we are not “of this world.” Came by from the Mom’s Mingle. Thanks for the inspiration.
- TereasaM
  
  You got it! Thanks for stopping by.
http://ourgoodfamily.org/ Aurie Good

Awe….I’ve been there stomping my feet and throwing temper tantrums in my heart. Praising His grace and patience along with you!
Jessica @ Muthering Heights

Poor guy…I know just how he feels!!!
http://www.everydaytruth.net/ Lori @ Everyday Truth

I have so been there — both as a mom and as the one stomping my feet. Thanks for the reminder that God knows what’s best.
- TereasaM
  
  Thanks for stopping by. I enjoyed your post about duct tape and twine today. So true!
http://www.redemptionsbeauty.com/ Shelly Miller

In this is humility, the ability to see yourself in your son and write about it. Lovely post.
- TereasaM
  
  :) People who see me and know me from day to day think I am quiet and well-composed. Little do they know I can be a big cry baby in private.
http://sylvrpen.com/ Sylvia R

Love it! (Lots of knowing, admitting smiles.) God bless!
http://doshaughnessy.blogspot.com/ donna oshaughnessy

“It’s not FAIR”. Yep, not fair at all…and if that is the worst of their worries in this life, it will be great :0). My oldest son struggles with MANY things his younger brothers are permitted to do that he could never do at their age. It is like reverse envy! We were in a very restrictive place when my older kids were 14,15 (the age of the younger ones now). I encourage him by saying he should be happy that I am not as hard on them as I was on him. He gets it most days :0). Enjoy your family today!!! :0) Thanks for sharing.
- TereasaM
  
  Yep, we’re never satisfied as long as we search for “fair.” Good to see you! Hope you had a great vacation!
http://whimsywords.blogspot.com/ Julie Anne

oh, it’s nice to know we are not alone… Thanks for the picture of God scooping me up at the end of my fit!!
http://myjourneytoauthenticity.com/ Meredith

What a handsome little man…
Your family is beautiful!

Loved hearing your poetic side.
- TereasaM
  
  Look out, I am a multidimensional woman!
http://www.theatypicalhousewife.com/ The Atypical Housewife

Such a great blog post, and so true! It’s shameful to think even though I am such a “mature adult” I too often have little fits at the feet of Jesus! You transferred this to words beautifully! Thanks for sharing
- TereasaM
  
  And thank you for stopping by!
Lisa

Perfect analogy. Been there, done that way too much and honestly, still do. Ah, for the mercy and grace and love of our wonderful Lord. Where would I be without it?!
- TereasaM
  
  Hey girlfriend! (((hugs)))
Lauren

Wow, so true! We have to realize that we need to stop worrying b/c God’s got us! Lauren, lholmes79.wordpress.com
http://www.revivingmotherhood.com/ Stephanie

What a beautiful picture of God’s grace. Too often we hold our children to higher standards than we hold ourselves. Thanks for sharing.
http://www.revivingmotherhood.com/ Stephanie

P.S. I appreciate your spiritual abuse links in the sidebar! So needed!
Alicia Bruxvoort

Oh, Tereasa, I LOVE this post. So true. Of our little ones wanting to grow big. Of ourselves wanting what another sister has. Thanks for your honesty. And your lovely writing. Stopping over from Better Mom link up today.
http://myfreshlybrewedlife.com/ Barbie

Oh I am rushed to grow up too. Even though an adult, still so immature in many ways. And God says come as a little child. Why do I shrink back from that? Beautiful post today!
Kathryn

Love this! Found you on the mingle. Now following via fb, twitter and pinterest. Would love follows back if you get a chance http://www.cumminslife.blogspot.com
http://www.sarahannrogers.com/ Sarah Ann

Ah. Love this, and how true it is. Beautiful words and a gorgeous blog!
Sherri Davidson

Beautiful!!!!
RedOakLane

beautiful post.
Thank you for linking up with Thankful Thursday.